~This is the first post ive never had the nerve to put up~ 

"A good day aint got no end, A bad day is when I lay in bed and think about what might have been."

Right now its 7am and I have not gotten any sleep. My body is weak, my eyes are burning and my chest feels like its about to implode. Im sitting in the main lobby of Dekalb Memorial Hospital trying my best to keep my eyes focused until I finish this post. This is my first real post so I don’t want to screw it up (much).  Enough of the jabber. Right now I have a lot on my mind a lot of mixed emotions. There stirring in my brain unfocused and scattered. I paused briefly and looked at the ceiling to see if I could gain a little focus, it didn’t work.

Which direction should I take this post, I don’t know. Maybe I should explain how I am feeling. 

I feel lost…clouded…looking for something maybe I should write a poem. I have been working on posts but I have not gotten the nerve to post them, I don’t feel motivated. Im just tired.

Days like these you just want to give up, give in and surrender. But its days like this, you have to hold on to whets important to you, lock it in your brain and push forward.  In life you have good days and bad days, even plants need rain in order grow, as in life - those bad days can leave you a little wiser and more mature than in the past. Maybe tomorrow, I can tell god that Ive grown a little bit.